It’s the very last day of 2012, and I’m more than halfway through this one, and I want to close this door and open a new one in the morning.
I have been struggling this past year. Actually, struggle is not the correct word. I have been searching this year. Searching for spiritual connective-ness and more self-awareness. I realized that the search is ongoing, at least for me. Oh, I have been on this path before when life was really, really difficult and I had to scrap myself up off the floor with energy that came from letting go of whatever “high drama” I was holding on to at that moment. There is no “high drama” in my life, now it is more about re-defining who I want to be in this new chapter of life. Retirement. It will be 3 years in April. It’s taken all of these 2.5+ years to realize that what I have been doing is no longer ENOUGH. New awareness’, new friends, new adventure/places/experiences…realizing that I am not the woman I was in 2010 when I left my job and began the journey we currently enjoy. The novelty of RV travel had worn off earlier this year…now it has become part of how I live each year. However, I know that there can be more and that is what I have been searching for during this year.
I want life to feed me. Actually, I want what I do in my life to feed me. I want a life that nourishes me all year-long.
I am not a resolutions person. Oh, in my younger life I would make A resolution in January that never, ever saw March 1st let alone December’s last day. Resolutions have dissolved into “intentional lifestyle changes“ … So this year my ‘intentional lifestyle changes’ will include: a) a creative writing class, b) weekly group meditation attendance, c) improved nutrition , and d) playing more with my spouse .
- Creative writing class because I have always wanted to write something that gets published before this life is over. (This blog and my travel blog do not count. )
- I discovered meditation many years ago, however my practice has been sporadic at best and there is a Zen Community in my town that has a weekly group meditation community – attendance is now my intent
- Four years ago I was diagnosed as having a gluten sensitivity…. because I love gluten I pretty much ignored the suggested guidelines to feeling better….it is my intent to live and be gluten-free by next December, and in the process feel better every day – not just now and then. If I can release alcohol, cigarettes and 80 pounds, I can release gluten.
- My spouse and I don’t play enough….we don’t use the “local event/happenings” nearly as much as we can and should and my intent is to change-up how we play.
I started 2012 on Playa Coyote Beach, Baja Sur and am ending the year in New Mexico, USA.
Farewell 2012, here’s to 2013 being filled with intention, love, laughter and fun.